Monday, August 27, 2007
yes the date of prelim is getting closer
yet i dun find myself panicking
probably i residned to fate tht exams ha become a part of life
wat to do tis is like monoploy
where nth can be predicted...
erm yes also the date when i wont be in spore is closing in
plus my birthdae is coming up
MY WISHLIST : veri simple
i juz wannna hug everyone yeah!!! sheesh nt for guys though...
haha actually i wont mind...
err diao nvm another thing is i prayed tht the meeting
for the NWSP is nt on fri
if nt canot celebrate...
somemore haiz so long wan then have to go there again lol
nvm...
posted at 12:42 AMInuyasha
Saturday, August 25, 2007
2dae thanksgiving actually seemed so slow
time was crawling i guess
i wanna get out of there
i have no idea
it juz felt tht way
for no particular reason
i felt totally subdued tooo .... y?
i dunno... i have no ans but lots of qns
yes i realise it may be my instinct to get away frm crowd
but thts nt the pt cos it felt veri awkward
b4 tis i was taking a fruits basket character bk
frm online frenz called simmie
she loks sweet petite abit unlike wat i thought
anyway sadistic....
cos i went wif JY have to thank her
she always be by my side
no matter wat
but talking to tht part i realised tht i cld neva fit into any crowd
at the dinner i felt so trapped
like as if i m an exhibit
finally i knew it i cld nt take it anymore
and walked over to others tables
they re so happi cos no one is left out
but for mi i was mistakenly being thrown away
stupid i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!
oh yah one more pt was tht i hate being compared
so i realli dieliked sitting wif my parent
aiyah so i talked to alot of pple
kk, chi chi, boba, even sch lol
AND joanni
haha
lol there goes the happi part
bad news: my aunt lost to cancer
i juz saw her yeaterdae and she left tis world in the morning 2dae
yes somehow it felt nt as painful
due to the fact tht she wld nt nid to suffer anymore
i guess
but when i went to the wake rite after thanksgiving
i saw my grandfather there
his eyes squinted wif red eyes dry from tears
i suspect he had cried his heart out
the cover was on the lid
no one got to see her
but i guess if we eva get to see her i tink we realli will cry like nutz
then i saw her son onli 4 yrs old around there la
running around playfully oblivious to the tradgey tht befalled on him
i clutched my chest feeling the pain once again
tis is the 2nd time i lost a relative to cancer
it felt like so angry
but thts nt the pt i realli want her to be in haven or whereva tht will have no more pain on more suffering no more sadness
i prayed
posted at 8:37 AMInuyasha
Friday, August 24, 2007
nt realli
actually is more of pain
have u eva felt like yr heart is wrenching
yes i juz felt it
so painful even when u drop tears
it doesnt even relieve tis pain
when her eyes looked upon us
it striked both fear and sadness in mi
her eyes have no more glittering like in the past
instead all tht was left was the difficulty of even
opening her eyes can u believe it?
it wld have been worse for my grandfather
who might have to send her daughter on her last road
and yes its wat chinese said bai tou fa song hei tou fa
is the most painful
after juz 10mins of awkward silence
looking at her it felt even worse
i decide i had enugh
and moved out of the room
zi bei and si bei also moved out
its too torturous for them to see their youngest sister
suffering... she's attached to a life support
and her breathing was so tedious
it realli broke my heart as she had always taken care of mi
when i m young unlike my bro who came in onli 2 yrs later so
it was nt tht bad for him
but seriously i must spilled my feelings out here
if nt i m frightened when the dae she leaves
i wont be able to take it.....
somehow as i m typing i m crying as well
its hard i dun wanna write anymore....
posted at 6:09 AMInuyasha
Friday, August 17, 2007
yes i m ultra bored of tis freaking slow song
and also i see there re mani nicer blog skins out there
refering to anime ones
yes be realistic i sux at doing blogs
damnit
i canot take it anymore
i will and i must change tis blog skin too emo la
i dun wanna tht to happen!!!
but it did in the manga where c syaron left sakura
and r syaron wanted to remain beside her
so touching sniff sniff....
haha
okie alot of anime to change to
expect either d gray man shakugan
or let mi see maybe...
there beyond the beyond
i love the twins haha who cares
k bye
i go fix blog first....
posted at 9:55 PMInuyasha
Monday, August 13, 2007
good news do come in sequence
it seems tht way for mi
LUCKY LEH
firslty i am happy tht i passed chinese o lvls wif a b3 grade
fine i tink thts great!
i mean i find tht okay cos thts kinda common among my class
though its true tht there re still pple tht re upset
Y?
maybe a bit hard to accpet the fact tht they got B3 too.......
also i managed to cross eng oral wif smiles on the invigilators face
lucky mi somehow i made them laugh when i say i m a tomboy
HEHE!!!
dots diao maybe its a smart move but wateva the case i tink
i realli brightend or made an impact on them afterall
i mean how mani girls will cross u admitting tht they re tomboys
HAHA!
lol
anyway the last gd news is!!!!
i got into DPA excerise finally
and of course i accepted the offer
i wonder how mani lucky ones out there re jumping wif joy now
erm...
anyway time to celebrate
i m gonna eat dinner BYE!!!.....
posted at 3:00 AMInuyasha
Saturday, August 11, 2007
yes somehow i believed tht 2dae must be the last dae
i wonder y last dae for alot of things
FIRSTLY my wasting of money on frenz gift
actually i find it worthwhile but my mum thought of a juz an excuse
i prove her wrong man!
anyway it doesnt matter to mi
the best reward i eva get is the simles on my frenz face
pratically touching sob yah rite
thts nt the pt lol
SECONDLY its the last i eva get to go out
cos soon juz less than one month away i m going to switerzland
bad news is tht it hits prelim rite on its face faintz
omg
wat to do die there MUAHAHA
THIRLD i tink it will be the last time i blog here
anyway no one reads nor leave comments tht re meaningful
FINE i dun tink i wanna post anymore posts
since i have a journal which i faithfully write in everydae
WITHOUT FAIL YES U HEARD IT RITE
okie i find tis gonna go nowwhere
who cares?
oh yah sth to add on
THANK YOU JIE : she bought mi a shana necklace
for birthdae gift haiz wonder how much she spend again lol
it was veri nice unlike the so damn fake one tht
juz now the party of us saw in comics connection
tht totally sux
i show u all if possible
anyway thts it for now
logging offff...........
posted at 2:11 AMInuyasha
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
damnit juz now blogger got prob. i canot
updae wat i wirtten juz now
so long and my efforts were wasted yes!!!
LOL fed up
briefly through k
u see i have been searching for d gray man and melody of oblivion
cos these 2 abimes were great yeah
u can watch it on tv n wed to fri at 11 so late
no lah wont la if u stay up like mi u become nocturnal in no time
but thts quite gd so learn to stay up late now is better than later
oh its harder a lot harder nowadaes to find anime online
due to the fact tht tooo mani anime companies re crashing down on
illegal loaders like ermm
who cares rite...
anyway thts nt the pt
looking forward to 13 th aug
thts when DPA result is out
and el oral
yeah at least i believe shd be easier than chinese
got much more confidence
and yes managae to skip thanksgiving rehearsal the 2nd time
how mnai times can i realli skip tht bo liao wasting time thing?
argh who cares.....
posted at 5:01 AMInuyasha
gargar desu xD
loves dar <3 alot
cosplay too
animals cos they are so cute
frenz who stand beside mi always
hates life sometimes
saddness tht comes along wif alot of things
backstabbers = = gossipers wateva
animal abusers ought to die