Saturday, August 25, 2007
2dae thanksgiving actually seemed so slow
time was crawling i guess
i wanna get out of there
i have no idea
it juz felt tht way
for no particular reason
i felt totally subdued tooo .... y?
i dunno... i have no ans but lots of qns
yes i realise it may be my instinct to get away frm crowd
but thts nt the pt cos it felt veri awkward
b4 tis i was taking a fruits basket character bk
frm online frenz called simmie
she loks sweet petite abit unlike wat i thought
anyway sadistic....
cos i went wif JY have to thank her
she always be by my side
no matter wat
but talking to tht part i realised tht i cld neva fit into any crowd
at the dinner i felt so trapped
like as if i m an exhibit
finally i knew it i cld nt take it anymore
and walked over to others tables
they re so happi cos no one is left out
but for mi i was mistakenly being thrown away
stupid i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!
oh yah one more pt was tht i hate being compared
so i realli dieliked sitting wif my parent
aiyah so i talked to alot of pple
kk, chi chi, boba, even sch lol
AND joanni
haha
lol there goes the happi part
bad news: my aunt lost to cancer
i juz saw her yeaterdae and she left tis world in the morning 2dae
yes somehow it felt nt as painful
due to the fact tht she wld nt nid to suffer anymore
i guess
but when i went to the wake rite after thanksgiving
i saw my grandfather there
his eyes squinted wif red eyes dry from tears
i suspect he had cried his heart out
the cover was on the lid
no one got to see her
but i guess if we eva get to see her i tink we realli will cry like nutz
then i saw her son onli 4 yrs old around there la
running around playfully oblivious to the tradgey tht befalled on him
i clutched my chest feeling the pain once again
tis is the 2nd time i lost a relative to cancer
it felt like so angry
but thts nt the pt i realli want her to be in haven or whereva tht will have no more pain on more suffering no more sadness
i prayed
posted at 8:37 AMInuyasha
gargar desu xD
loves dar <3 alot
cosplay too
animals cos they are so cute
frenz who stand beside mi always
hates life sometimes
saddness tht comes along wif alot of things
backstabbers = = gossipers wateva
animal abusers ought to die