Friday, July 30, 2010
i was busi editing my blog here and there
tryin to put music onto my blog without fail
= = swt
haish
nvm topic of the day: time
i realise my time ish getting lesser
realli much lesser than i expected
i dun mean my life span HAHAH unless sth happens
but anyway i meant time for cosplay and studies re shortening
my slp time ate them away MUNCH MUNCH
LOL
yawns maybe it shows my health ish also deteriorating away
no la jkjk im still ok maybe w/o the chest pains wld be gd
hurhur
i was at arcade 2dae wasting my time away since i cant concentrate on my work
i lvl up my jubeat and tried my hand at wangan again
though i lose by -0m WTF
= = kns la.. .. so sad
nvm will train harder when i get my hols xD
time ish losing losing losing away ...~~~~~~ lalalalalal
i go abit siao sometimes too
was tokin to amelia bout some of my cosplay plans and cfm getting eternal his wigs
oh i accompanied my mum to hospital
will noe the results by mon or so
doc claimed tht it wld either be srs or veri srs
both ways re bad T-T haiz i did abit research on jaundice too
plus i studied bout it b4 so i knew some of the problems linked to it
my mum ald started eatin healthily b4 even tis happened
maybe it was abit too late
but at least late than neva as said by someone ( i cant rmb who )
btw we went to eat soup spoon after tht since i didnt eat dinner
which ish ard 9pm enjoyed it veri much
since my mum neva tried b4 plus she loved healthy food
:)
Hehehe
hopes life will get better
posted at 10:05 AMInuyasha
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I realised i rarely toked bout cosplay on my thread
might as well do so now XD
i started off buying cosplay frm various sources
frm tailorin to even shops
then i slowly learnt how to tailor myself
sewing was hard at first
i either poked myself veri often or lose concentration or even effor to ctd
sometimes it gets frustating when i sew wrongly
then i will do ARGGGGHHHH
oh yah btw i started cos nya pushed mi to
and i neva regret cos i learnt to depend on myself for once
:) of cos i saved much more
and i go for characters tht re simpler of cos
and lesser patterns since my pattern sewing ish still weak
plus i dun like to do sth so consistent
but i love the feeling of creating sth out of my own hands
xD it feels so gd tht i always try to go for harder ones
then things go haywire
haha plus i cant do props veri well so i rely on others again
2dae wasnt a veri gd day
i got 0 for another paper
wow 2 0s in a wk = =
cos i missed both retakes and i deserved itT.T
haish better work harder next wk
if nt realli can go die liao T.T
my pratical was hell 2dae i cldnt do S/C or IP
cfm phail
bad news keep rolling in
haish
srsly... its tiring to keep up wif tis nonsense
my mum juz got jaundice and it might be srs
will be accompanyin her tmr whole day
hopefully she gets better since she going to check up at SGH
oh god pls put all her pain on mi
then let mi suffer since i m always the one causing so much hurt to her
i might be a free thinker but
god pls dun let pple ard mi suffer tis way
thanks amen
posted at 9:25 AMInuyasha
Monday, July 26, 2010
im realli tired 2dae
it was bad enugh tht i bear wif the stupid rashes
cos im allergic to cat fur which stuck on my lab coat
making my face and hands inflammed and i m ald feeling horrible
then i tot someone wld make my day
but unfortunately dar made mi felt worsehaish
and i cant concentrate on my work again
im bound to fail
doesnt matter anymore
i no longer care bout my studies le
im trying to change
and i no longer recognise myself
as said by some of my frenz
im off to cry somemore
it aint matter
posted at 9:40 AMInuyasha
Saturday, July 24, 2010
im slping alot last few days
but i dunno why i still dun haven enugh energy for the next days
i m feeling dead for no reason T.T
im listenin to R&B songs to cheer up and i tink i sat in front my com too long
even though i knew dar neva like mi listenin to them
but i got influenced by chi chi
my left shoulder ish starting to tense up hurting abit
usually i can study veri well in the nite
nowadays i feel so tired and unmotivated i juz stone
realli stone
dar always asks mi to read and relax but nth ish going into my head
isit tht im starting to lose focus on study?
then wats gonna happen?
tis ish my last semester b4 i face my SIP
i cant afford to lose anymore time and effort
im scared and i no longer noe wat to do
i lost 3 days of schls and miss 3 written tests and 1 interview
im gonna reface them tis coming wk
and i feel im nt prepared at all
i dunnno wat to do anymore im so lost, confused and tired T.T
i keep tinking while bathing
tht my hands started to wrinkle its e same when i swim too long
and the rest of the things i was tinking i ald told dar
so some were being addressed
while others im still tinking abit here and there
goes back to yawning b4 staring at my work
posted at 11:04 AMInuyasha
Friday, July 16, 2010
I wonder if he eva sees tis post.
he's probably struggling to slp and again its my fault.
im so exhausted and im realli sick of myself always hurting him
maybe i dun derserve such a nice guy
i was waken up by a nitemare sadly ..i tot i wld be able to dream since i has such a sweet one last morning
maybe its an omen tht tmr wld be worse.
i realli dun look fwd to tmr and i rmb he said that leave tmr to tmr
dun tink too far and worri for 2dae first
my tears re droppin into my laptop argh takes tissue paper
and i realise my left shoulder chest area hurts again
i dunno when or how i injure tht part
swt= =
fails
i pray for 2dae to be better
if anything, i will post again
posted at 12:03 PMInuyasha
Friday, July 02, 2010
2dae ish the 5th day mi and my dar were officially tgt
we met each other everyday ever since sat :)
its raining rite outside so heavily
as i see the rain falls, i rmb my past times..
past times wherby even if i stand under the huge rain, no one wld be bothered
but now things have changed, i have someone beside mi holding onto my hand
i wish times of being wif him wld neva end
even holding onto his hands made mi felt loved
every moment im wif him, i wish he felt as loved as i am
rite now he's helping his fren set up an exhibition
i wish him all the best and pray for his safety
posted at 12:42 AMInuyasha
gargar desu xD
loves dar <3 alot
cosplay too
animals cos they are so cute
frenz who stand beside mi always
hates life sometimes
saddness tht comes along wif alot of things
backstabbers = = gossipers wateva
animal abusers ought to die