Monday, August 30, 2010
yeah trust mi = =
no one noes tht better than mi
i was silly wishing sth despite wat happened on thurs and
i ald knew tht it wont happen
im juz like a kid
i neva grew out of my pesstimistism
and it juz worsened
sianx
i lose the mood to study
been going out wif nya and eternal so tht they can bring my moodiness away
and thank god it worked
though it taken more time
but still thanks to the silly 2 goons
they make my day
:) thanks to 2 of u though u neva get to read tis post
loLs
blazblue shoot planning on the way
has taken abit more time than expected and
yeah im enjoying every bits since
we re doing it tgt :P
hehe thanks to nya for planning my miku costume too
now i noe wat to get rite after my exams
:P LoLs life still has a bit glimpse of light
posted at 4:47 AMInuyasha
Thursday, August 26, 2010
= = im starting to feel tht im realli cursed
i tot to myself tht last time my life was juz dead at least onli i suffer
now im hurting others ard mi
wow .. i srsly sux
now im trapped wif my emotions
and i have to fking study
wow great time choice to quarrel
srsly life dun give any peace to mi
i dun deserve anyone neither do i deserve anything
i shd nt have been positive and tink more fr myself
then no one wld be hurt
i love u but i m sorri i dun derserve u neither am i gd for u
im sorri ..
posted at 10:36 AMInuyasha
Sunday, August 15, 2010
im ald feeing feverish rite now
i have to tahan a headache..im way behind in my studies
cos i dunno how to plan well
all i do ish fucking spent my time online
doin wat?! ..playing pet society toking to pple on msn
= = im losing time.
thank god i m goin overseas so tht i can take break off all these
i can do lots of thinking
and wonder if someone truely loves mi
even though i promise i dun deny the love, there ish a slight doubt
the doubt tht increases every arguement
tht eats into mi everytime i try to be positive
i try to get out of my shell but i got hit back
my cuts on my left wrist ish slightly inflammed
i have to hide it wif my bracelet i juz found
tht i wanted to wear on my and dar first anniversary but
i failed to find it tht time
so im wearin it overseas
lets hope tht i come back in 1 piece though
i m nt sure..
if my love for a person kills the person, then i rather let it go
i rather end it then tis pesron can find a better person to love
a better person who loves him and wont hurt him at all
a person who can help him wheneva he nids
i pray for such a person to exist in his life cos im nt tht person clearly
posted at 10:26 AMInuyasha
Saturday, August 14, 2010
suddenly i add 1 on the wrist and mani more on my rite hands..= =
strangly e one on my wrist doesnt hurt
while the ones on my right hand hurt like crap wheneva i hold things or touch water
interestingly i dun feel pain when i do it
its nt the first time le
crap i left my blog untouched for 30mins cos i was smsin dar
and facebkin at the same time
onli when i felt my pain, did i rmb it
= =
omg i have a feeling wo lao le everywhr also ache..
lies on bed and nua somemore
i dun wan to wake up nua nua nua
i starting to feel childish
swt =-=
sad i no maple story liao
if nt sure play wan
XD
posted at 10:53 PMInuyasha
Saturday, August 07, 2010
tis ish the song tht i used to like and i deeply felt it for the first time
the lyrics T-T i cant forget
Hajimete no KISS wa namida no aiji ga shita
----- The first kiss teated like tears
Maru de DRAMA mitai na koi
----- Like love in dramas
Mihakaratta you ni hassha no BELL ga natta
----- As if it was just waiting for the right time, the
----- deaparture bell
Tsumetai fuyo kaze ga hou wo kasumeru
----- A chilly winter wind brushes my cheek
Haita iki de ryoute wo kosutta
----- With a blown breath I rubbed both hands
Machi wa ILLUMINATION mahou wo kaketa mitai
----- The vity is lighted by an illumination, as if
----- magicaly casted
Hadaka no gairoju KIRA-KIRA
----- Naked boulevard trees twinkle
Doushite mo ie nakatta
----- I just couldn't say it
Kono kimochi osaetsuketa
----- My feelings I kept it down
Mae kara kimite ita koto da kara
----- This is what I've been deciding, so
Kore de ii no
----- It's alright
Furimuka nai kara
----- I won't look back, so
Arigatou sayonara
----- Thank you GOOD-BYE
Setsunai kataomoi
----- A bittersweet unrequited love
Ashi wo tome tara omoidashite shimaru
----- If I stop moving now, I might remember our past
Dakara
----- So
Arigatou sayonara
----- Thank you GOOD-BYE
Naitari shinai kara
----- I won't cry and all, so
Sou omotta totan ni fuwari
----- The moment I thought that, softly
Maiorite kuru yuki
----- Snow began to fall flowingly
Furetara okete kieta
----- When I thouched it, it dissolved and
----- disappeared
Ekie to tsuduku oodoori
----- A boulevard that continues to the station
Yorisotteru futari tanoshi sou
----- A couple that nestles close. Appear cheerful
"Hora mite hatsuyuki!"
----- "Hey look, it's the first snow of the season!"
Kimi to anna fuu ni nari takute
----- I wanted to be like that with you
Hajimeta tsukutta
----- I made it for the first time
Teami no MUFFLER
----- A hand-made muffler
Doushitara watase tan darou
----- Waht could I have done to hand it to you?
Ikuji nashi kowakatta dake
----- A coward, I was just scared
Omoide ni naru nara
----- If it's going to become memories
Kono mama de kamawa naitte
----- I can do along with this?
Sore wa honto nano?
----- Is that true?
Arigatou sayonara
----- Thank you GOOD-BYE
Itsukai konna toki ga kita shimau koto
----- Someday the time like this will come
Wakatteta hazu da wa
----- I knew that, right?
Nano ni
----- Yet
Arigatou sayonara?
----- Thank you GOOD-BYE?
Karada da furueteru
----- My body's trembling
Mousugu ressha ga kuru noni
----- Whent the train is coming in any minute
Sore wa ima ni natte
----- It's now
Watashi wo kurushimeru
----- Troubling me
Tsunagaritai
----- "I want us to connect"
Dore hodo negatta darou
----- How much did I desire that
Kono te wa karappo
----- And my hand is empty
Nee sayonaratte kouiu koto?
----- Hey, this is what we call GOOD-BYE?
Ika naku cha
----- I have to go
Sonna no wakatteru
----- I know that
Kimi ga yasashii koton mo shitteru
----- I know that you are sweet too
Dakara
----- So
".... Kono te wo hanashite yo"
----- "... Please let this hand go"
Deaete yokatta
----- I'm happy that we met
Kimi ga suki
----- I love you
Arigatou sayonara
----- Thank you GOOD-BYE
Hitokoto ga ie nai
----- I can't say a single word
Ima dake de ii watashi ni yuuki wo
----- Just for a moment, give me the courage to
----- speak
"Ano ne..."
----- "Hey, umm..."
Ii kaketa kuchibiru
----- The lips that were about to speak
Kimi to no kyori wa zero
----- The distance to you was 0
... Ima dake wa naite ii yo ne
----- ... Can I cry, just for this moment?
Mou kotoba wa iranai
----- There's no need for words anymore
Onegai gyutto shite ite
----- Please, keep holding me tightly
Rainen ni imagoro ni wa
----- Be this time next year
Donna watashi ga ite
----- What sort of me will exist
Donna kimi ga aru no kana
---- What sort of you will existe... I wonder
ripped off frm another blog wif it
posted at 11:18 AMInuyasha
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
i lost my limit 2dae
i was too tired to be ctding the quarrel
the more i sms, the more depressed i am
the more tired i become mentally, the more i wan to end it
my life ish breaking apart as much as my heart
diff pple give mi diff advice
maybe its time to give myself a real break
like last time
but if tht happens, then all wld be lost again
its ok ..its gonna be fine
i m still here
posted at 9:34 AMInuyasha
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
all i ask for simply ish understanding?
isit tht freaking hard?
frenz of my age can do it and older somemore ( a person who ish always there for mi even in my darkest time )
why cant certain pple?
maybe it meant tht we re nt meant to be at all?
i dun wan a person who loves but dun understand mi
im trying to understand a person who ish so much more experienced than mi
yet all i do ish hurt the person
maybe its juz mi being the one tht shd have went to hell much earlier
srsly why do things happen to mi but dun take mi away frm earth
= = then maybe all this wldnt happen, someone cld have lived on his life in peace
while pple ard mi dun nid to worry for mi all the time
i shdnt exist in the first place
it's always been tis way since the time im alive
im like a rose whose thorns hurt pple ard mi all the time
no matter how much i wanna minimise the hurt, all i do ish strangle them even more
and one day i will wither away~~~~~~
posted at 8:54 AMInuyasha
Monday, August 02, 2010
i see tired all the time
its 12 am i cant concentrate on anything
im freaking worried for dar
who didnt reply at all and my hp went anal on mi by offing w/o oning back
= = i dun wan to try oning it anymore
the alarm will hopefully on it tmr
im tired
why do others understand mi so clearly despite mi nt being pushy?
then why do some dun understand mi no matter how much i say?
im munching on tofu which ish filled wif chilli
im literally eatin chili but aint matter
i ald overdose so i shd slp
but wont kill bah
i onli took 3x amt.
so its still quite safe
nvm nt much to blog bout
posted at 9:25 AMInuyasha
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Balancing life can be easy for some and hard for some
= = and unfortunately for mine, its tough luck
i always adapt veri slowly to changes in life
and i noe it myself hurhur
balance blancucucu sounding like rima frm shugo chara
HAHAHA sho lame
anyway i duno wat to blog bout
i m abit stone and its 1.17am now
while waitin for dar to finish his long chat wif boss
xD
must be bout 2dae match
darn why didnt i go sad T-T
i was havin fun at arcade jubeating and wanganing my fears away
ok maybe nt fun but at least brings mi away frm the reality
yeah running away seems to be the onli thing i noe how to do
= = anyway time to stop blogging
nid to realli study sooon despite all my worries
tht cause mi to bathe too long
and having rashes again which i overdose myself to counter
lets hope i dun die frm the overdose
posted at 10:12 AMInuyasha
gargar desu xD
loves dar <3 alot
cosplay too
animals cos they are so cute
frenz who stand beside mi always
hates life sometimes
saddness tht comes along wif alot of things
backstabbers = = gossipers wateva
animal abusers ought to die